Thursday, September 15, 2005

another year wiser

I must apologize for the whining and ranting nature of yesterday's post. I blame it all on PBS. No, not PBS - as -in- the-only-kind -of-television- my- deprived-kids -get-to-watch- PBS, no, I'm talking about Pre-Birthday Syndrome. For those unfamiliar with PBS, it's an affliction that strikes people (mainly females) after their 29th year, oftentimes days, and sometimes, weeks, prior to the onset of their birthdays. Often accompanied by panicked vanity sessions in front of a mirror to assess noticeable signs of aging, and always coupled with a mental checklist of things that should have been accomplished by this age in life, but haven't been. So you see, I was feeling a little out-of-sorts.

But you know what? I've decided that I'm happy to be 33!

On an Oprah-esque limb, I've decided that I OWN my age. Would I trade in the youth of my 20's for the wisdom of my 30's? Not even for a second. Sure, I could do without the premature (or maybe, rightful?) gray and the crow's feet by my eyes, but they're a small price to pay for the confidence I feel in my own skin today. 10 years ago, I was slim and trim and black-haired, but I always felt awkward and unsure; always seeking to please for approval. Today, I'm a little flabbier- post-two babies, and the boobs don't sit where they used to post-nursing, but I've come into being me and trusting myself in a way that only time could bring. So bring on the celebration, I say! Turning 33 is more than ample reason!

And besides, who can resist a party when The Husband went and BAKED a cake for tonight??! (For those of you with DHs who cook on a regular basis, just know that this is HUGE for me. :)) And look at the card my 3 year old son, Brother Bossy Boots, made for me... (that's supposed to be an envelope with a stamp in the middle) His card made me tear up! I feel so blessed to have a loving husband and two incredible kids (who, by the way, usually do wear clothes :-)).

So hurray for my birthday! I am a lucky, lucky girl indeed!!!


keohinani said...

happy birthday!!! i think as long as you're young at heart, you'll never grow old--despite the physical evolution that would tell you otherwise. being comfortable in your skin is waaaaay better than trying and failing at being a MILF, anyway.
i wish you several moments' peace with your DH, FO's, and lots more yarn! yay!
wow, i'm impressed that your 3 yr old can write...and spell! again, wow! the best i could do was fool my parents thinking i could read, but it was only because i memorized the cassette tape that came with my read-a-long book. i totally blew my cover when i said "when you hear this sound *ding*, that means it's time to turn the page." *ding*

Karen said...

Happy Birthday to You!!! And age is just a number - so good for you on deciding not to stress over it!! Who could stress with such a great birthday card hand-made just for you???

Tomato said...

Happy birthday Candsmom! I am so sorry- today is the first day I've checked my blog in months! Yes, I've been out of the loop (pun by all means intended). Series of events going since August... needless to say, I haven't been knitting very much. :( But, I am so happy that you contacted me, and I absolutely love your blog site. You really have a way with words and your kids are adorable! And yes girl, you own your age! You inspired me to own mine too! I'll be in touch with you and Opal, to let you gals know what's been up. I've got some big plans in the works and just keeping my head above water is proving to be a test of mental stability and faith. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for writing and I love what you've been working on!

Take care,

keohinani said...

i hope you check this soon! it's 8:00 on saturday morning and knitpixie has aquamelon vesper!!!

knittinmom said...

Happy Birthday!!! Sorry I'm late! I just turned 31 last month, and I think the 30s are great. I finally feel like I'm old enough to be a wife, mommy, etc. Back in my 20s, I always felt like I was faking it!

Love the cute kiddos! I can't keep clothes on mine, either...

Acornbud said...

Happy Belated Birthday! May all your acrylic turn to cashmere, alpaca and wool:)